Going within can be terrifying; to be willing to truly be still and with my self is not easy. Because it can be such a despairing feeling to go within and not find what I need, rather than tolerate the emptiness I race headlong into the acquisition of more of what I think will fill
What I endeavor to do with my day, what I can conjure up in my inner vision, how I perceive the world in which I live: these are what give my life its unique meaning. The meaning in my life is the meaning it has to me. Life does not necessarily have intrinsic and specific
Today I see that I cannot really forgive while I am holding on to anger. I try for forgiveness because I know that ultimately it will give me freedom but when I come near to it, what comes up for me is anger. My rage is deeper than my ability to forgive. That is all
The kind of anger that I use as a hiding place is largely unconscious. Acting it out is simply another way to keep it unconscious or to not feel it. When I get triggered, I blame someone else; I see the other as responsible for my bitterness. My unconscious is saying,
Today I accept that each time I grow or change, somewhere pain will be present. I have greatly accelerated my growth process in recovery. Issues that I may have accumulated over a period of decades I am dealing with in a much shorter time frame. The pain of confronting myself in these ways will be
I will live the life I have. All the lessons that I need to learn are spiritually present within the situations of my day. Life and spirit are one. A block in my life can be seen as a block in my spirit. When I use the circumstances of my life as grist for the
Today I can allow myself to feel normal. The deep reservoir of pain and the intense feeling of a lack of safety that I carried around inside of me made me feel separate from other people. It gave me the feeling of being different, of watching the rest of the world through a dusty glass.
It is often the elders among us who understand the value of rituals and who help to anchor them. Older people who understand how to be elders, who are able to pass on encouragement and strength rather than despair and judgment, are gifts to society. Elders who have worked through their own failures and inadequacies
Today I know when I am anxious or in pain. The reason that I know this is because (1) I am no longer stuffing my anxiety so that I can’t feel it or anything else and (2) I am not constantly living with a low level of discomfort. When anxiety comes up for me, it